Human..

When I was six years old, I was glad that I was born in this world. There were four persons who always protect me, play with me, and gave me warmth whenever I needed it. The world was so colourful and out from any pollution. I enjoyed my life running around the house and joy never left me behind. In my mind, everyone was so nice.. everyone was so benevolent. There was nothing else but happiness. To me, people will always care for each other and willing to help each other when one faces a problem.

When I was 12 years old, I started to notice the dark side of human. The things happened around me makes me wonder the purity of this world. People starts to become darker and darker to me. However, all these was ignored by me and I just enjoy having fun playing with my friends and getting the protection from my family. The fact that my mind started to be polluted was covered up by the innocent left in my mind.

After six years, it was getting more obvious to me. I started to realize that not everyone was as benevolent as I thought. The worse was realizing I was as evil as they are. The pollution in my mind was getting worse after the impurities from the outside collaborate with the devil in my heart. The realization of my evil part makes me suffer. I started to hate this world, I started to hate myself and I wish I wasn't born in this cruel world.


Receiving the teaching of the great sage saved me. It prevented me from walking the wrong path continuously. Holding the helping hand of sages, I enjoy walking the path that lead to happiness. I felt lucky that I met them just in time. Thanks to my compassionate mother.. Thank you so much. Out of so many person that doesn't have the luck, I am the lucky one to receive the education in the early life. But due to my laziness, I felt that I was loosing them soon.. This freaked me out..

19 years old.. A age that most of the people afraid of. Living for twenty years isn't long. Challenges are waiting for me ahead. I don't have enough courage, i don't have enough strength, and I don't have enough wisdom. Starting to feel lonely, I want to find someone who has the same aim and can be my comrade. I found one now... And I know what she wants.. She want happiness. Just like me..

This world is cruel.. This world is hopeless.. This world is evil..

If you are thinking that way, you will never find peace..

Yes. You are right. The world is cruel, hopeless and evil. This is the fact.

But when you notice that, you should feel happy. As you will find your way to another world that is full of happiness.

This will will lead you to the path of joy. Believe it. It will..

Why?

Because I have found mine.. All I need now is perseverance and determination. ^^ So do you..

Things are getting better.

rainbow will come after rain.. My life is getting better and better after a down period I have faced. ^^

Thanks to those who read my post. I am fine now. And indeed I feel that I am xing fu.. haha. Thanks for your wishes. And xiao nv hai. Thanks for your patient!! Hope we will be happy forever.

I know we need time and don't worry. I have confidence that we will be happy..

Lets jia you bah.

Hero

Everyone wants to be a hero. So do I. After living in this world for nearly 20 years. I noticed that, the true heroes always have to suffer and sacrifice. That is why they are heroes. The true hero will never be appreciated by any other people. Want to be a hero. You must have the ability to deal with loneliness. ^^

Amituofo. Our great teacher. You are really a hero. :D