Human..

When I was six years old, I was glad that I was born in this world. There were four persons who always protect me, play with me, and gave me warmth whenever I needed it. The world was so colourful and out from any pollution. I enjoyed my life running around the house and joy never left me behind. In my mind, everyone was so nice.. everyone was so benevolent. There was nothing else but happiness. To me, people will always care for each other and willing to help each other when one faces a problem.

When I was 12 years old, I started to notice the dark side of human. The things happened around me makes me wonder the purity of this world. People starts to become darker and darker to me. However, all these was ignored by me and I just enjoy having fun playing with my friends and getting the protection from my family. The fact that my mind started to be polluted was covered up by the innocent left in my mind.

After six years, it was getting more obvious to me. I started to realize that not everyone was as benevolent as I thought. The worse was realizing I was as evil as they are. The pollution in my mind was getting worse after the impurities from the outside collaborate with the devil in my heart. The realization of my evil part makes me suffer. I started to hate this world, I started to hate myself and I wish I wasn't born in this cruel world.


Receiving the teaching of the great sage saved me. It prevented me from walking the wrong path continuously. Holding the helping hand of sages, I enjoy walking the path that lead to happiness. I felt lucky that I met them just in time. Thanks to my compassionate mother.. Thank you so much. Out of so many person that doesn't have the luck, I am the lucky one to receive the education in the early life. But due to my laziness, I felt that I was loosing them soon.. This freaked me out..

19 years old.. A age that most of the people afraid of. Living for twenty years isn't long. Challenges are waiting for me ahead. I don't have enough courage, i don't have enough strength, and I don't have enough wisdom. Starting to feel lonely, I want to find someone who has the same aim and can be my comrade. I found one now... And I know what she wants.. She want happiness. Just like me..

This world is cruel.. This world is hopeless.. This world is evil..

If you are thinking that way, you will never find peace..

Yes. You are right. The world is cruel, hopeless and evil. This is the fact.

But when you notice that, you should feel happy. As you will find your way to another world that is full of happiness.

This will will lead you to the path of joy. Believe it. It will..

Why?

Because I have found mine.. All I need now is perseverance and determination. ^^ So do you..

Things are getting better.

rainbow will come after rain.. My life is getting better and better after a down period I have faced. ^^

Thanks to those who read my post. I am fine now. And indeed I feel that I am xing fu.. haha. Thanks for your wishes. And xiao nv hai. Thanks for your patient!! Hope we will be happy forever.

I know we need time and don't worry. I have confidence that we will be happy..

Lets jia you bah.

Hero

Everyone wants to be a hero. So do I. After living in this world for nearly 20 years. I noticed that, the true heroes always have to suffer and sacrifice. That is why they are heroes. The true hero will never be appreciated by any other people. Want to be a hero. You must have the ability to deal with loneliness. ^^

Amituofo. Our great teacher. You are really a hero. :D

A new sem, A new hope...

After three weeks of busy holiday, my second semester in Adelaide finally started with the freezing cold morning. You can see the water vapour coming out from your mouth when you exhale. Try to imagine how cold the weather is!! Guess what, it is only 0.8 degree celcius when I walked to campus this morning and that is the coldest weather I ever experienced in my life. I like cold weather before I came to Adelaide but now I understand cold weather can be frustrating as well! The cold wind is like a javelin pierce into your shirts and you will feel like your skin is freezing. The power of nature huh. Really scary.

Waiting for holiday is a part of a student life! Who doesn't like holiday? I doubted there is anyone will say no. However, I actually planned to do lots of things during the holiday but somehow I didn't manage to complete most of my plan. Laziness really is the thief of time. For conclusion, I just spend my holiday in Adelaide enjoying myself visiting all the interesting places such as wildlife park and germen town. Besides that, I participated in a few b'day party for my friends and that was really magnificent.

New semester is full of new challenges and new obstacles to be overcome with. Among all the problems, I think the hardest will be how to become a more benevolent person. I have been trying to control myself for a long time but it seems that the power of my bad habits is stronger than my determination. Hope I will gain more strength to deal with the growing evil in my heart. May amtb guide me all the way..

If you want to browse the pictures taken during my holiday, feel free to visit my facebook account and leave some comment. I am lazy to post all the wonderful pictures here. sorry about that. :P:P

P/S: 王妙音居士，be strong.. sorry that I can't give you comfort and give you support at that moment. I think amtb can hear you and help him to change to a better person.. Please accept my apologies for not being able to bring you happiness at this moment.. Take care .. 阿弥陀佛。

Back from Rushi camp!!

One more weeks to go!!! I am going to start my second semester soon. Hopefully I will enjoy it as much as I could during the first semester. My result was out yesterday and guess what i have for my COMM? It is I which means incomplete. Don't ask me the meaning as I don't know what happened as well. Most of my friends have failed it and hopefully i will at least get a P2 for it after it is completed.

The buddhist camp is rather enjoyable. I met a lot of new friends from all over the world like Japan, Vietnam, Indonesia and Hong Kong. the camp reminds me of the days when I was one of the commitees organising the similar youth camp in Tampin buddhist accosiation. I am quite suprised that they only organised the camp for two times before this as their events and games are really interesting and meaningful. It is really one of the most enjoyable camp I ever had. A great job! I learnt a lot from the camp and hopefully I manage to use all the knowledge I gain in my life.

Being one of the buddhist I am learn how to deal with death ( the ultimate problems ) and all sorts of problem that we used to have. However, with my affliction, I still can't control myself well enough to remain peaceful all the time. I really hope that one day I can achieve what I want to and bring happiness to the people around me just like the laughing buddha. Death. I suppose most of the teenager wouldn't think about this problem until they get old one day. I am lucky to find my own solution to overcome the death. Have you find yours? If you haven't, NOW is the perfect time for you to think about it. Don't think that you have a lot of time to think about it later because if you don't make a move now, you might regret later. Tomorrow will always be a mystery and who knows our life will end by tomorrow? Think about it seriously.

Find your peace in your heart. Then you will find your own way to live happily. First, we need to answer two questions.

What is life?

What is the ultimate goal of your life?

Me?

I am sure you know my answer if you followed my post.


My ultimate goal of life..

Obviously, Pure land....

AMTB..

^^

Holiday starts!!

My holiday starts with a birthday party for Hooi lie after the toughest paper, COMM. Agr!!! Whatever it is, my holiday mood starts when I was doing the paper. I even fall asleep when I was doing my summary.. Speechless..

Holiday is the best time for us to relax and keep our minds away from all the books, assignments and tests. Holiday allow me to sleep more, play more and have my mind relax more.. I know you understand why I like holiday so much. Who doesn't like?

My writing skill is regressing... So do my speaking skill. These are all due to my laziness. Having no particular mood or enthusiasm to write, I neglected my blog for a long time. I feel extremely remorseful when i read somebody else blog. The way they present their life, the words they used really makes me indulge in a virtual world of language. I wonder... would I have the skill to create my own language world? But anyway, I will just sui yuan and try my best now.. So that i won't feel bad trying and trying again.

I will pass my first week of holiday walking around adelaide and know more about the city I am living in. Wildlife park, shopping centre and any places that can arouse my interest shall wait for my presence in these few days. I have prepared my bus tickets and here we go!! ^^

The second week is for buddhist camp organised by zhu lin temple. It is a youth camp which allow us to know more about buddhism and try some meditation. My mom is worried about the style they are using as I, the follower of pure land style, shall focus on chanting the amituofo buddha's name and not confusing myself with other methods. However, there will be no obstacles as I am the one who is controlling my mind. I will just chant amituofo while doing meditation and everything will be prefect!! This will be a good chance for me to train my chatting skill. ^^ yeah~

Third week is still blank and free from any plan. I will just spend some time with te ying and my friends.. If I will have any plan, I will tell you all.

That is the plan for my holiday. Lets have fun~ cheers~

阿弥陀佛。

十方三世一切佛，一切菩萨摩诃萨。辛苦你们了……
我现在才了解你们的辛苦，真的是谢谢你们，辛苦你们了……
佩服佩服，真的是佩服得五体投地……

原谅我这个没用的弟子，不能帮你们分担，弟子惭愧，还没有能力……
弟子发愿，如果有幸在此生成就，一定会为救度众生为事业。。

阿弥陀佛。