I am going back!!

Friends and family, thanks for your support! After a sad post, this time I will share some good news for you all.

As you all know, I am having my exam now. I still have one subject ( chemistry ) to go. It is on Saturday but I am still having my own sweet time posting here. :P:P Here is the great news!

-I will be back on the 7th of December. However, I have to attend my uncle's wedding in KL and I will only reach home after a few days. Don't hesitate to call me if you miss me or wish to find me desperately! :P

-I still keep my phone number!!!

-I will stay in malaysia until 25th of February~. That means I manage to celebrate my CNY in Malaysia!! YEah~~~

-For those who are addicted to DoTA, I still play it and willing to have some fun playing with you guys when I am free.

Thank you for those who always read my blog and update yourself with my latest status. I apologize for not posting frequently. May we meet in the coming holidays!

Cheers!!!

I hate myself.. And I feel lonely..

In the end, I am still lonely..........amituofo

One more month to go. haha.

Exam is just around the corner which means that I am going back to Malaysia soon! I feel extremely happy for that. I have been waiting for this moment since I came here. Although the life here isn't that bad after all, home sweet home is always the best right?

A few weeks before exam should be very important for students to make their last effort. Library is full of students with every kind of books they borrow from the library. All these things do not happen for the lazy guy --- Gan yi hong. As usual, he is stick with his computer and manga despite the coming exam. He knows that he has to strive hard for good result and he definitely knows that if he doesn't start to read pharmaceutics now, he is going to face a big problem later. Pharmaceutics is just too complicated for him especially the part when it describes how the health system in Australia works. That will be easier for local students but for an international student like him, it will be difficult to memorise everything now! ( I know that I shouldn't feel so. :P )

The urge to study doesn't come to me, my mind is just full of the activities that I plan to do when I go back to malaysia later. This is the time for me to think about what to buy for all my relatives. I need to buy lot of stuffs for those who have been waiting for me! :P:P

English? I keep my distance away from newspapers and blogs for quite some time. I need to start finding them in these few weeks time. This is to prevent my father from saying something like : " how come your english standard still remains the same after you have been staying in Australia for such a long time? "

Anyway, I can foresee my future. english english english. I really hope that one day when I wake up from a bad dream, my mouth can speak in english with ease and without any pauses. My mind can think in english without any obstacles and my hands can write in english without any grammar mistakes. I don't wish that I can write like an author. I just wish that I can be a average writter with no simple grammatical error. I absolutely wish that my father will say something like: " your english does improve a lot!" That will be the best bday present for me. haha!

All these dreams will not happen! The only way to achieve my goal it is to be hardworking. I need to strive hard during my summer break. Hope that I can finish harry porter after my summer break. :P:P Father, don't worry. I won't give up.

PS: I still hate languages! Hate grammar!

I have ignored my blog for such a long time..

Sorry guys. I know i am sucks at blogging. Besides that, you sure feel that this blogger is lazy and there is no cure for it. Life just been normal for me these days.. exams, tests and everything. I just don't feel that I need to post something that is so normal here. hahaha.

I have been noticing that I am changing. Changed to a person that I fairly know. I noticed that. But don't worry, I will change back to the yi hong that you used to know. Just give me more time and you sure will say something like:" yi hong, You didn't' change at all!! " when you see me in dec!!

December is coming and I am so happy about that. It is time for me to go home soon. I am glad that finally I am able to have my holiday soon. Three more months i guess.. Am i too early to feel happy? Exams is just around the corner and I am totally engulf by the excitement of holiday. swt..

See you guys in three two months time. enjoy and wish you guys stay healthy and happy always.

Holiday~~

It was ages ago since i update this blog. Sorry about that. Haha. I am really lazy to write something here most of the time. Although there are some interesting things that worth to be mentioned but I just don't have the enthusiasm to write them. So lazy huh! I deserved a scold.

These few days were very wonderful. After the Biology practical on last Wednesday, the holiday mood dominated me and I started to become lazy. Leaving all the books and notes behind, I enjoyed myself playing computer games, chatting and wasting time walking around in the house. I had left out so much and I was still able to use all my precious time doing nothing. Amazing huh?! yea~ Soon I would face the consequences.. Haiz.

The holiday kicked off by a visit to my jewish friend's small party on Friday. Interesting enough, He is living with a indonesian girl and a cute land lord. I enjoyed the dinner ( spicy fried rice and wrap) provided by them and we had lots of fun playing a special game called greed. A special experience and thanks to Jeremy for inviting us along.

The next day was a tiring day. We hunted the city down for the hope of gaining the grand price of 1000 dollars. Big money huh! Haha. We ran for a few kilometres and in the end we won one 2GB USB pendrive for each person. Thanks to the pedestrian in rundle mall for giving a help in building the largest human piramid in adelaide!! :P:P

The tireness remained and worsen after we went to glenelg beach and soak ourselves in the freezing cold sea water. I was thrown by a whole group of people and thanks guys! That would be the most wonderful thrown I had ever encounter. Anyway, it was really cold!!! haha. I enjoyed it though. Don't worry. Spending time with your friends and love one along the beach was definitely a wonderful idea. Try it out. ^^

And today! I didn't go anyway, just spent my time with te ying reading the statistics notes. Anyway, it was fun as well. And hopefully tomorrow we are able to finish the statistics's assignment. Null hypothesis : We are able to finish the assignment tomorrow. Alternative hypothesis : We are not able to finisht the assignment tomorrow. Significance level 0.05

If the p-value is less than 0.05, I will treat you guys some ice-cream!! haha. So pray for me okay? :P:P

Holiday started. I need to plan well so that I won't waste any precious time and I need those time to revise the stuffs that I left out in the first half semester. Wish me luck~ ^^

Experience versus Wisdom You versus Me

People have long wanting to get wisdom from their life. They learn from University, they learn from religion, they learn from internet and they learn from any way they can. In the end, not everyone is going to attain to real wisdom. I never discuss this with my friends nor my relatives. Everyone seems to be avoiding this topic to prevent anything bad from happening. Why would i say that debate or quarrel might happen if you bring this topic forward in a discussion? Different people have different mindset. They perceive and define wisdom by using their experience and the education they received since they were born. They learn slowly by taking the experience from their surrounding regardless the reliability of the source. Debate will start to occur when everyone thinks that their own opinion is the correct one.

"Do not believe on your own views until you achieve the level of Arhan."

"Why Arhan's view can be trusted? Arhan doesn't have attachment and thus he possesses the real wisdom. How about us? If we can't trust ourselves, what should we do when we meet some problems and how do we live a life CORRECTLY?" A student asked.

"Since you can't trust your own views, just rely on the sages' teaching. Sages have achieve wisdom; they can guide you to the correct way."

"But how do we know that they are correct? What if they are wrong? What if MY view is the best view?"

"When you are saying "my" view, I know that your view can't be trusted. A true Sage doesn't have his OWN view. When you say MY view, that is base on what you have been through. A person with wisdom doesn't use his own view. He uses the wisdom from the "true self". Everyone's "trueself" is the same. Therefore there is no YOU and ME. Sages use the REAL wisdom."

"YOU are autocratic."

"I am." master said.

"huh??" Astonished by what he replied.

"Aren't YOU?"

"Er....... Thank you master. Now I understand."

Human..

When I was six years old, I was glad that I was born in this world. There were four persons who always protect me, play with me, and gave me warmth whenever I needed it. The world was so colourful and out from any pollution. I enjoyed my life running around the house and joy never left me behind. In my mind, everyone was so nice.. everyone was so benevolent. There was nothing else but happiness. To me, people will always care for each other and willing to help each other when one faces a problem.

When I was 12 years old, I started to notice the dark side of human. The things happened around me makes me wonder the purity of this world. People starts to become darker and darker to me. However, all these was ignored by me and I just enjoy having fun playing with my friends and getting the protection from my family. The fact that my mind started to be polluted was covered up by the innocent left in my mind.

After six years, it was getting more obvious to me. I started to realize that not everyone was as benevolent as I thought. The worse was realizing I was as evil as they are. The pollution in my mind was getting worse after the impurities from the outside collaborate with the devil in my heart. The realization of my evil part makes me suffer. I started to hate this world, I started to hate myself and I wish I wasn't born in this cruel world.


Receiving the teaching of the great sage saved me. It prevented me from walking the wrong path continuously. Holding the helping hand of sages, I enjoy walking the path that lead to happiness. I felt lucky that I met them just in time. Thanks to my compassionate mother.. Thank you so much. Out of so many person that doesn't have the luck, I am the lucky one to receive the education in the early life. But due to my laziness, I felt that I was loosing them soon.. This freaked me out..

19 years old.. A age that most of the people afraid of. Living for twenty years isn't long. Challenges are waiting for me ahead. I don't have enough courage, i don't have enough strength, and I don't have enough wisdom. Starting to feel lonely, I want to find someone who has the same aim and can be my comrade. I found one now... And I know what she wants.. She want happiness. Just like me..

This world is cruel.. This world is hopeless.. This world is evil..

If you are thinking that way, you will never find peace..

Yes. You are right. The world is cruel, hopeless and evil. This is the fact.

But when you notice that, you should feel happy. As you will find your way to another world that is full of happiness.

This will will lead you to the path of joy. Believe it. It will..

Why?

Because I have found mine.. All I need now is perseverance and determination. ^^ So do you..